Angel Black

THIS is why I shouldnt be allowed to rant...

Wed, 22 Nov 2006 04:10:57 GMT

Hey!! I FINALLY realized what I want to do in life!! I'm going to major in zoology and get a minor in literature! And once I become a Zoologist, I shall own a variety of animals! The animals that I want are the following:

Leopard
Cheetah
Tiger
Lion
Wolf
Bobcat
Falcon
Panther
Monkey
Lynx

Oh, of course, I don’t want them all at once, no, but maybe one or two at a time, ya know? I REALLY want to work with these kinds of animals; I even want to go to Africa and the Tropical Rain Forests to do research. Maybe I could even go to China and see the Panda Bears!!! *SQUEEEEEEEEEE* That would roooock! Hmmmm... maybe I could see something really exotic... like the White Bengal Tigers, or the Penguins in Antarctica! Cuuuute! But, I know this is gonna sound funny, I really want to get loads of snapshots. I'm gonna start getting snapshots of the twelve Chinese Zodiac soon. Yeah, I know, that sounds easy, but I want to. Cause I'm weird like that.

I really want an indoor cat, like one listed above but tame-ish, but I HIGHLY doubt that Syd would appreciate a tiger chewing up her junk... FUNNY!!! And I for a fact with all my heart KNOW that Tyler wouldn’t like pounced by a panther when he walks in the door, or Kevin being attacked by a wolf when he playfully hits me or something for saying something funny or just plain stupid... wow.... I'd be on SO many death lists. Which makes me wanna do this even more than what I did!

Heeheehee!!! Oh, and in my HUGE castle, I'll be safely guarded by all my animal friends *starting to think I really sound psychotic* and my bestest friends Tyler and Sydney. And then I'll bring Robbie down from Wisconsin and he'll live with us as our weapons master.

Soon, stock markets will drop, like... KABLAM! And its okay, I'll already be rich. And I'll convert ALLLL my money into gold, silver, and jewels. So, I'll already be rich when values of current money drop dramatically and we'll all have a new life-style like the middle ages again.

A huuuuge plague will hit, but don’t worry, I'll be okay, and so will ALL my friends, no matter where they are. It'll be a miracle. Many people, though sadly, will die causing population to also dramatically drop around the world. But that’s okay, Why? Because soon, there will be wondrous phenomenon! The moon will triplicate and on will be normal, one will be red, and the other will be blue. They will each emit strange dust over all the land and people will people (cept me and my friends and my enemies :( ) will loose their memories, and some will gain magic! Yay magic! Also, strange monstrous creatures will be born! And then... BAM!! We're living in my awesome, imaginated, magical world that I would sooooooooo live in given the chance!

Oh yeah, and the people would all make me and my brother royalty! Kevin would become King Kevin, and I would be Princess! Since Sydney is my almost-adopted sister, she would live in the castle as my best Lady, but poor little Tyler will have to be a commoner *getting revenge*. Oh, of course I [i]could[/i] make him a knight... or not!
But I would make Dylan, Jamie, Duane, Daniel, Jared, and Andrew my royal knights. But because they'd be under King Kevin's orders, he'd most likely order them to follow me around and keep me out of trouble... So then I'd become rebellious and start running from them and Kevin Mercer, my vampire sorcerer and I would cause trouble all around the courts, and when I'm not doing that I'd be sneaking around with Tyler in the markets or training with him and Robbie.

As that is bad, here's some good: My Birthday Parties would totally rock out!!! I'd like, send my falcon out to deliver letters to all my friends around the world and my Royal Adopted Sister, Queen Ravyn Crescent, who would be the guest of honor! And ALL the townsfolk would bring me pretty things because they all love me! But the evil Lord Cody Hensley would crash my party with his loyal Penguin-Boy servant Jeremy Martin. They'd try to cause me lots of trouble, but all my knightly--yet idiotic--friends would fight them off. But because they are idiots, they would lose!

Then King Kevin and Kevin Mercer, the sorcerer, would try, and fail as well. So then Cody and his little Penguin-kid would attempt to hurt me, but Tyler would pop literally out of nowhere and beat the crap out of them until they ran away crying like little bitty babies, and the party would go on. Yay! Party time!

But then, weeks later, Tyler, Sydney, and I would become bored and sneak to the docks, where we would be abducted by pirates!! So, we'd all become pirates and I would be the Princess of the Pirates, because I'm just good like that. And soon, we'd invent airships and we'd become air pirates. I would be completely skilled in matinance and mechanics! And then, we'd go to some town and the pirates wouldn’t be able to find us in time, and they'd leave us behind.

But because we'd been pirates for sooo long, we'd still have a treasure addiction, so we'd all three being lives of pickpockets and thieves! Yaaay! But somehow we'd find some strange portal and it would transport us into a secret room, back home in the castle on the exact moment we left for the docks. So, instead of going to the docks, we'd go and rescue a princess from a dragon!

But it would just so happen to turn out that it's not only one princess we're rescuing, but four. And after we slay the dragon and gain lots of skill points, we'd find out that they were none other than Cassie Bell, Savannah Triplett, Ali Elwood and Sarah Rymer, the four princesses who have declared with all their beings to ruin my life! Seeing whom I had just rescued, I'd go on a complete mental rampage but hide it. So, being the sweet girl I am, I'd invite them to stay the night with Syd and me at my castle. And they being the .... girls.... that they are, would agree in the preppiest way that it would literally make you sick.

So after they fall asleep, Syd and I would come up with many different ways to slowly and painfully destroy them, and then we would act. We would drag them downstairs to the dungeon, after tying them up, of course. First, I'd take out Ali, no Cassie! Then I'd take out Savannah and Sarah in that order, and THEN Ali, and her punishment would be by far the worst... cause she really is horrible.

And then, weeks later, Tyler would wonder what has happened to his beautiful, wondrous, and amazingly talented...*cough*blonde*cough*.... Princess Cassie... And Syd and I, being the psychotic freaks we are, would laugh hysterically until we could no longer breathe. And then one day, a handsome prince would come and ask King Kevin for my hand in marriage. Syd would cry, Tyler would get mad, and King Kevin would accept joyously. I would fall completely in love with the prince, we would get married, and waaay later in the future have 3-5 children!

And I would live happily ever after with my prince, my friends, and my awesome animal friends who started this WHOLE entire rant!!! AAAAHAHAHA!

I'm on a rampage!

- Chell!!

relaxaiton and omg...

Sun, 01 Oct 2006 03:53:16 GMT

Its been a while, mainly because there's been a lot going on. Well, I was finally getting to the point of relaxing and being able to deal with things, and it felt GREAT! I mean, after all the stress I was going though, I finally shoved things in the back of my mind and could sit down and think of nothing. Just sit there. And it was great. That went on for a while, until I got hit with the stupid stick.
Again.

So I started dating this guy named Travis and everything was great. I was happy and crap. Crap is the keyword there, because I made some people angry and hurt some of them too, which wasnt worth it. So, he's no longer in my life.

After that things were looking up, but I took a hard fall when I was told I need to be checked for Scoliosis. And then I was told if I have it, I'll have to endure surgeries galore, and have a pole in my back, and will never be able to play softball again. Ever! And the sport is my life, besides bowling, and literature... and theater arts.... Not my point... point IS I wont be able to play, which I've done since I could walk. And its possible I'll have to give up bowling. Adding to the stress, I was told there is a 55% chance I wont live, and a 75% chance I could be paralyzed.

Just what I needed.

And then, Thursday... I had a mental and emotional breakdown. See, some IDIOTS (*ahem* Kevin's friends *ahem*) have discovered these horrible dead baby jokes and are enthralled by telling them. They started going around around April of last year. Kevin told me a few of them and thought I was laughing, so he told me more. By the time he was done with the ones he knew, I was in the floor shaking and crying so hard I could barely move.So Thursday, Pyro and Aqua told me one and I ran into first period crying. I was sick all day. When I got to 6th, Drama, I was told another one. Being stressed and already upset about that morning, I broke down. I started to hyperventilate and I was in hysterics. I had to be taken out of class and to the Coucilor for help, where I just sat and cried.In a nut shell, I calmed down enough to go back to class, survived the rest of school, came home and told my dad.

and got the worst shock of my life.

I sat there, on the couch, and listened for 2 hours while my parents listed off every single bad thing about me. How they told me that they wished I was a better person, because I'm a horrible child and I have problems and I need help. So now, I have to see a shrink, where they'll tell me I'm crazy, and give me meds to turn me into a mindless, emotionless zombie, like they did Julie... OR if that doesnt make me a "better daughter" then I get to be shipped off to Boarding School till I'm 18. :D isnt that GREAT!? ...

So, people have spent the better half of two days trying to make me smile, and they've had success. Actually, I'm happier than I've been in a while now, which is kinda messed up, but I'm not complaining. So, for now, I have friends to lean on who I know will support me, and I thank them SO much! Without them... gah, I dont even wanna THINK about it. :p but a shout-out to them! Well, I must go entrance my mind in the wonderous works of Ravyn Crescent, my adopted big sister, whome I LOOOOVE so much. :) Love ya bunches,
- Chell (Angel)

As one chapter ends...

Mon, 07 Aug 2006 00:27:35 GMT

You know that old saying "As one chapter ends, another begins"? Well, it doesnt say that the end of the chapter has to be all sugar, rainbows and unicorns. Actually sometimes it can mean the loss of friends. As in my case.

A few of my friends, one in particular has made it clear that she really doesnt want to be friends with me. She calls, sure, but thats probably only because no one else is home or anything.
It sucks, yes, but I'm going to be okay.

Why? Because TYLER'S HOME! YAY!

I'm so happy! My BEST friend in the WORLD Tyler is home for good and I'm sooo happy!

On another note, I'm the biggest idiot ALIVE! I keep making the SAME mistake over and over and over. There is this guy, we'll call him Jerkwad. I've known Jerkwad a looong time and at some point I started to like him a little more than just friends. Some junk happened between us when I was 12 and he was 16 and we got close, only to find out it was a lie.

Mistake #1

Then one day, about a year later, he was happy with his girlfriend, whom we'll call Poser. He was so serious about her that he even proposed. One day he stayed the night and he ended up kissing me, but the worst part is... I kissed back.

Mistake #2

Soon Poser and Jerkwad broke up and he moved on to (one of my actual REAL) friend's boyfriend's sister, Changed. Jerkwad was REALLY happy with Changed. He would rush off to meet her as soon as the bell rang so that he could see her before the bus came. But one day, I forgot my Clarinet for Band, and Jerkwad came up to the Instrument room where I was sitting. I should have just sat there, but no. I stood up to hug him, and it turned into more than just a hug.

Mistake #3

Then Mistakes # 4, 5, and 6 came soon after.

After having my heart ripped out, then torn to pieces and stomped on 6 times, I declared that I was over him, and I would NEVER go back to him. Ha,yeah right. It worked for sometime, and I devolped this unbelievable fear of him and I almost panicked every time I saw him, but then... then it faded.

And then last night... I began on mistake #7/

I agreed to meet him tomorrow. In the woods. Alone. I dont know how to back out of it... but I'm going to. Because... I dont want mistake #7 to come through and leave me broken again. Plus, Tyler would kill me. He hates Jerkface...

But yeah... so... my life is in a downwards spiral. Fun! Not really... that and school starts back in a week... oooooh.... I dread it.

Well, thats about all I have to say about life for now... excpet this: If your looking for a good book, check out "Predator Turned Prey" by Ravyn Crescent. I swear it will rock your sox! It did mine! Reeead it. :p

Hey guys.

Sat, 17 Jun 2006 20:35:51 GMT

Hi.

Well... I decided that I needed one of these for mental reasons. If I keep everything inside as I have been doing, I'll probably drive myself into painful insanity, which is NOT cool at all.

I have a problem with opening up with people and myself. Sure, once you get to know me, things come out easier, but not easy. There is only one person who knows all there is to know about me, and he has left me.
Tyler, He moved.
But what KILLED me inside and out is that his older brother got to stay here with their mamaw, and he had to go. Moved to Sunny California and left me here.
I do talk a lot to my friend Robin whom I met online. He has been here for me when I needed someone. But even he doesn't know everything there is to know. This possibly could be a good thing.
Sometimes I wonder why Tyler still even TALKS to me after some of the stuff he finds out. I'm scared to let people inside. Scared that they'll leave me if they find out my secrets. I'm afraid to be alone.
So, I wear a mask. A mask that Tyler has tried t o pull off and burn. He wants me to open up, but I'm scared. So, he opens up for me. I know he does. He, I'm sure, has told Robin a few things while I was out of the room. And it wasn’t about Pop tarts! (Inside lie/joke thing)
But I'm getting there. Getting closer to opening up. Scared to do so, but close. But, it just got a little harder.

I have a stalker. Yeah... A stalker. Literally. He follows me everywhere. It's scary. Tyler was the only one he was afraid of, but now Ty is gone. I'm scared, alone, and being stalked. Great.

Fun.

Robin and I have named him Idiot, and that’s all you need to know about his identification. He's a literal pain.
They tried to get me to tell SOMEONE, and I finally, after a few months, caved and told my mom. Well, SOME things. I didn’t tell her how he breaks in and stuff.
It DID help me feel better, but this is my problem. I can do this on my own.